What would you scream into the ether right now?

Often, we can see what needs to be said, expressed, created, started, released, and stopped...but we struggle with doing it. The 'getting it out of your mind' and into the open air. So, how do we do it? 

While this feeling of knowing what must be done is something we share as part of the human experience, the process of making it happen is not a "we" thing, it's a "you" thing.  What's going on in your mind, your life, your heart; your foundation, beliefs, traumas, the reason you do some things, and the reasons you don't do others? That's all you! 

At first, this is overwhelming; the responsibility of your life. 

It might make you cry, anxious, frustrated, scream to the skies, stomp your feet, and throw a tantrum in your mind, or out loud. The recurring thoughts will make you squirm in your seat, or take it out on someone nearby. The barista at a coffee shop, someone with a different opinion than you, or an innocent bystander the moment you can't take it anymore. 

Or it might make you paralyzed, realizing what to say seconds or hours after the best moment to say it. Doing something months after you know it could be done, because you simply didn't have the mechanics of "how." 

I offer you my process of taking personal responsibility. I got to an almost untraceable point, within relationships, within my work, within my mind, where I couldn't take it anymore.

So, I started by experimenting. I read something about my personality and took tiny bites of what life would be like when I said what I needed to say, the moment it felt right to say it. By stopping when it feels wrong. By starting even if I'm afraid. 

Over some time, and with exposure, practice, ample and intentional space to "not feel great," and with the honest admittance of it sucking, the discomfort began to feel very powerful. 

The energy that was once the fuel for resistance, was now the fuel for change. It became the fuel for satisfying personal power, clarity of mind, and strength of heart. Upon choosing to face this responsibility, albeit very messy at first, my mind became a place of calm, knowledge, and freedom. 

Communication, boundaries, self-discovery, and shadow work can be sources of intense life satisfaction. 

When I began to shift, I recognized that the energy going into resistance was the exact energy that could fuel the profound changes I was seeking, both internally and externally. With practice, meditation, and journaling, I learned to choose to see them this way, moment to moment. 

I guess I see no point in choosing the opposite perspective anymore. That these things aren't hard. 

That I am ultimately what I believe I am, and that things are ultimately what I believe they are. 

So, I want to flip it back to you; what do you think you could do with the energy that is going towards holding yourself back, holding it all in? 

What would you scream into the ether right now?

Thanks for reading!